Practice what you preach!
That’s my motto for this week’s blog. More than 12 years ago, I began challenging others to leave their comfort zones and to spread their wings to fly – and now it’s my turn to do the same. Lately I had been feeling that there were other challenges waiting for me. I felt that new doors would open for me, but only if and when I closed an existing door somewhere else. That’s how it felt to me.
I feel that the “other door” to close is the front door of my headquarters. I mean it. I’m closing the doors of the Energy Lab on Vreekesweid 12 in the town of Broek op Langedijk in the Netherlands. Yes, you read that right: the Energy Lab — the place where people came for workshops, activations, and to experience everything else I was creating – is closing.
If you ask me why I’m closing my headquarters, my answer is simple: I want to move on. My heart is calling me somewhere else. I am ready for the next step! Sometimes growing means choosing to let go in love, to release what feels so safe and comfortable. My process started in the summer of 2015 when I took a group to the holy mountain of Balukha (Siberia) for the second time. When I returned from this intensive trip, it took me weeks to recover. But as I look back at that time, I am amazed at how quickly I returned to my normal life of giving workshops and presentations, especially considering the huge contrast between that life and being with a group of fellow searchers on a holy mountain in Siberia.
When I returned from Siberia this second time, the homecoming was different. I was more aware of the powerful energy of Balukha and its effect on me. I saw the process that had begun, and I asked myself honestly, “Do I want to go back to the same story? With all this new inspiration from Siberia, isn’t this the time for new choices?”
I have learned that the best way to make important decisions is to distance myself from my normal life, and my time in Siberia gave me that. That’s how I knew, when I came home again, that I had to change something. The seeds for this process actually were planted in a new workshop I gave right before I went to Siberia called “Keys to your Calling.” The energy from the workshop, and the gratefulness that the participants expressed in their Facebook comments, touched me deeply. I was moved when reading all the stories of the participants that found their calling and changed their lives in a significant way. Suddenly, something started working inside of me. I got on the plane to Siberia with a very strong desire for something new, a sequel. What it might be, I didn’t know, but what I did know was that my own calling was being activated on a deep level.
When I returned from Siberia in August of 2015, I knew there was no going back from this calling. Everything told me that it was time to look for a new direction, but how? My guides, the Arcturians, helped me. They gave me the inspiration, sped my evolutionary process, and cleared the way. Certain people in my life began to support me, while others disappeared. It seemed like everything was being arranged for me remotely to say goodbye to the Energy Lab. Because of that help, I feel like I made the right decision. While writing this, I now hear my guide Saïe say:
“Be patient. The outcome of your decision is fixed. A time of joy and pleasure has begun. Stay close to yourself in this transition phase, because there will be doubts rising about your decision. But the ones who will support you in this process will travel along with you and will experience the freedom of child-like playing in a field of unlimited possibilities.”
It is great to feel this kind of support and love when making such a big decision. It was quite something for me to say goodbye to the Energy Lab. A part of me would love to stay and keep doing what I’ve been doing. But I also feel that I have done everything that I could do at the Energy Lab. There were so many magical experiences that took place there. I will treasure every memory and take them with me to the future. I had great times in this special building. It was my holy temple. Everything seemed possible there: workshops, presentations, retreats, rituals, fire ceremonies, musical concerts, films, dinners, readings, and so much more. I welcomed so many people from all over the world, from the US to Australia. It was sometimes beyond my imagination: people that traveled more than a day to experience the Energy Lab. It’s crazy if you think about it, but all this did happen. I remember a theatre filled to the maximum on December 21, 2012 – that highly anticipated day. Other days open to the public had lines of people waiting to get in all the way to our building entrance.
I can’t even count the number of times that I switched on the colored lights after an afternoon of activations to see people jump off their cushions with a loud cry, surrendering themselves to the accompanying music. Besides the joyful outbursts, there were also times of tears from those deeply touched or from those who were in a deep process. Other times we might have been hugging each other, confessing our deepest secrets, giving our own eulogies or sharing our deepest passions in front of a group – we did all of this and more in the Energy Lab. Everything was possible. It was such a joy to connect with each other time and time again. It was a party that I never wanted to end.
And that’s why I can’t stop right this minute! We will go on until the end of this year — four more months of enjoying each other, of getting everything I can out of the Energy Lab and creating a tremendous energy together with all the people who will visit Broek op Langedijk until the doors close. I filled the agenda with beautiful events and, of course, we will close the year with a spectacular ending as we do very year: our Year End Ceremony (and this time it’s not only the end of the year but also the ending of a very special period of time!).
I would like to give my heartfelt thanks to everyone who came with a warm heart to the Energy Lab since its opening in 2009. You helped carry us. And hopefully we will see each other regularly till the end of this year!
The key to happiness is excitement for the future.
From heart to heart,