You are striving for change, but the outside world shows you, that you are not ready yet. It feels like you have a long way to go, because there is still so much to learn. You are lacking knowledge to actually get started. Others are ahead of you, because in your eyes they have already achieved what you want to achieve.
Please realise that it serves no purpose to pay attention to this. Those people, who seem to know more than you, have followed their own path. What really matters is that you realise that you do not need anything or anybody. Knowledge is not purely about understanding something; it is about knowing that everything is already within yourself. You are a library full of information; a barrel full of hidden talents to be discovered. Trust your intuition and all the answers will come up easily.
The frequency of Knowledge puts you in touch with everything you know, but hasn’t surfaced just yet.